"Ellen is a Medieval English form of Helen. Helen originates in Greek language and means "torch of light". In Greek mythology, Helen is a famous figure, known as Helen of Troy. She was a daughter of Zeus, described as a beautiful woman. Her abduction by Paris triggered off a series of events which finally ended in the Trojan War. In Christianity, Saint Helena is the one who found the relics of the True Cross upon which Jesus was crucified. Throughout centuries, Helen has been one of the most popular feminine given names."

ORIGIN:Greek

PRONUNCIATION:EL-ən

MEANING:Torch of ligh

Annyeong!I go by the name of Ellen Marie (엘렌). Im a Filipina, born and raised in the Philippines. Im currently living and working in Al Ain, Abu Dhabi, UAE. Im a crazy kpop-fanatic, Blackjack and VIP (according to my brother) and im kind of obsessed with G-Dragon.

Three months ago, he told me he liked me. He told me he loved me. He made me feel special. He cared for me and treated me well. He courted me and even told me that maybe we were meant to marry someday. He gave me happiness i have always longed for.

Then suddenly he changed; right after i answered "yes" to him. I dont know what happened, it was so sudden. Gone was the guy i fell for. Our relationship suddenly turned into a noona-dongsaeng relationship. I told myself, "that's okay, maybe he was just acting silly again." But i was wrong. So wrong because after a few weeks, he became a stranger. I no longer understand him.

Until finally, a few nights ago, he texted me. I was so happy at first. I didnt know that night would turn out to be like hell for me. He told me he wanted to share something to me. I was so excited to hear it. Until i got his reply. He told me he finally got a girlfriend. I almost didnt believe him. Because all these time i thought he was mine and i was his. Haha, i didnt realize until that night that everything he said were lies. I didnt know i was only making a big fool out of myself. I congratulated him. He thanked me thinking i was so happy for him. He didnt know i was already crying so much because he hurt me.

Dear bastard,

Thank you for making me feel so miserable. I am now trying to move on from the pain you're caused me. I saw your so called girlfriend. She's pretty and feminine. Maybe that's why you fell for her. I just hope she'll love you like i do. I just hope she'll take good care of you. Does she know how stupid you think sometimes? Haha. You drive like mad at times when you're late and you almost got yourself hurt one time, right?! I hope she tells you to take good care of yourself. I hope she stops you from driving so fast especially when you're a bit drunk. I hope she stops you from smoking coz you know that's bad for you. I hope she saves all your videos too and watches them everynight. I hope...I hope she'll be good to you.TT.TT

"i wish you knew how much this hurts. but then again no, i dont. it would be too embarrassing to have you know that i cry at night, that i wish you were there, that i pretend im holding your hand, and that i relate all these sad songs to you."